So I feel sooo good after taking a break from social media and blog mode. Sometimes you need to take a step back to figure out what exactly you are aiming for. I think I got caught up in trying to promote the blog and social media and the whole idea of Life as Leila and I lost sight of what I was actually doing on here. When I do something I want to research it and be the best, aim high. I had been reading about blogger 101 and found myself getting lost in social media and overwhelmed with numbers and stats. Taking a step back allowed me to figure out exactly what my purpose was on here and refresh my mind and creativity. I swore I would never go back on Facebook and 5 months into blogging I found myself making a Facebook page… then within weeks I was drowning in the negativity of Facebook. Its not that I don’t want to be informed, its that anytime I click on anything, I am consequently then barraged with a series of similar stories and articles on that same topic. Its exhausting. Plus its just another app to mindlessly scroll. I enjoy the positivity of Instagram and the simplicity. I made a decision to deactivate my Facebook once again so I could get back to what I started.
What did I start? I started my Instagram as a baby step towards blogging, to just do a simple style diary for the love of fashion. Then I began finding all these great blogs that I loved reading and could relate to and I was reminded of my love for writing. This blog is like many blogs, a creative outlet for a woman who sometimes loses herself to motherhood. Its something I am creating specifically for me, by me, about me. Something entirely focused on me, my thoughts, my inspirations, and my ideas. Whenever I feel that mom guilt that maybe I shouldn’t be focusing on myself or setting aside time to create this thing that few people look at or read, I remind myself of what many of us do. Many of us spend a lot of time, zoning out on our phones, scrolling through other peoples content and creative outlets. Instead of watching someone else create, why not create myself? Instead of spending 20 min mindlessly scrolling, why not spend that 20 minutes creating content that is reflective of my own ideas and inspirations.
So here I am. Refreshed and ready to get back into blogging with a little less ambition and a little more balance. I don’t want to be glued to my phone. Just social media in itself can be a full time job for some. I realized that is exactly what I don’t want. I don’t want to be worried about likes and stats and reach and the best times to post. All I want is a little creative corner of this crazy thing called internet so I can find my voice and connect with others.